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thursday 9.16.26

At a certain point i fully accepted the value of my voice. I realized what I said was important, there was meaning behind it for myself, and I think there was for others too. I'd spent three years not sharing. Nervously hoarding all the notes I've been taking on self-development. How at one point I took criticism personally and if I were to use a metaphor, kept putting a Band-Aid over a cut i would not let heal.
Nervously, and very often I found myself in situations where the terror of feeling my anger feeling my fear, feeling my resentment caused me to internalize all thinking. While there is value in learning how to take care of yourself those equal value in taking some of the pressure off and connecting and asking for help, while also offering to. How did I develop a practice of letting myself feel my emotions? I let myself intuitively create. I found myself making art with clay, painting with my fingers using my phone screen. And the most vulnerable, was letting myself talk out loud to work through my feelings. Talking out loud as though I was talking to someone else. regulating in this sense, Through conversation. Time alone, and the additional and secret recipe to my newfound joy at experiencing life was through a esoteric, psychological exploration via multiple knowledge systems. I did not join a cult. Though I would start one. My cult would be open to anyone open to questionning, who valued recipority, and others with a generosity of spirit.

The introduction to a forthcoming project.

what is style when you’re running late for work?
me waking up too late, after the alarm with 30minutes to get to chinatown from brooklyn.

found at the san gennaro festival.
i probably over paid by a lot. but i love it

todays to dos

- edit volume one text (writing some essays on the planets. ive personified them, and imbued them with narrative special to me)

- cut bags for making (curious to try making strips and doing some weaving

- diy calender need some soft plastic

- edit research library pages

- fix shop pages, add product like to clothing

minutes

- missed my alarm this morning. (late by 4 mins)

local news

- san gennaro starts today

- today is the last sunset b4 7pm for the year

- ☀︎ in virgo 25°, ⏾ in sagittarius 14°

- First Quarter Moon tomorrow 9/18
(phase of action and decision-making: vital time to push through challenges and make choices that align with intentions)

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^{some distortion on photos i took. they feel dynamic almost graphic, in that strange, editorial way}

wednesday 9.16.26

I find great joy in change. I find discomfort too, don’t worry. Certainty is a lie. When things don’t work, it may be best to reevalutate and make some choice cuts, as to what best serves and what you can do without.
Like this dress here, the grey section was formerly a skirt. Rather than allow a skirt to make me feel insecure or think any ill or negative thoughts about my sexy body. I changed it.
Now it is the top portion of this rather odd(ly) sophisticated cocktail dress.

you are here

This song came on at DIMES during lunch this week. I felt transported to a time where music was made by people again. I felt like I was in my 20’s, I was going to shows at Union Pool and had a date every weekend, me and my friends loved spending time going to thrift stores in Williamsburg and tumblr gave everything meaning.

^9.9.26 Calling personal periods of intense focus on making, high tide. Likening it to water and the movement to and from. Maybe also consciously accepting my lunar and (happy to) ‘turtling’ self.

I’m feeling really good about finishing up this project. I started some time ago. All the parts had been sculpted in pieces, sat waiting. In the system I used I first made spheres and then would mold them in together. But I just got stuck at these balls. They stayed in a pile on my desk for so long. Clay so soft and receiving, started getting linty and dusty. I moved the tray often. Basically circling the studio/living room for a few weeks.

BIG moment of avoidance, but I’m feeling really excited about finishing. I just love flowers.

a limited number of one of a kinds available for purchase in the SHOP

horoscopes for september